road trip!

We dropped the dog off at the sitter and we've started to pack up for our road trip to Tennessee and the National Embryo Donation Center. I'm just happy we made it through Thanksgiving and the months of September, October and November. Now we have to make it through December, Christmas and the months of January and February before we can start trying at making a family again.

It's kinda sad that I can run down this list on months and holidays and have this sort of attitude about time, but this is how I'm framing my thoughts right now.

We also found out a few weeks ago that my husband might be getting deployed in March 2015. He came home and said: "Honey, I have some hard news."

I said: "Great. Your sister's pregnant again."

He said: "Nope. I've been put on alert for a deployment."

We'll find out more on that at his upcoming drill in December. For now we're taking it day by day and month by month at a time. I'm just grateful to have him with me now. We're not planning on altering our adoption plans in any way. As far as we're concerned he'll have his mission in March and I'll have mine - our mission - really. But I'll be doing it all alone.

It's gonna be hard if I have to go through multiple transfers alone, but I will do it.

So . . . lots of thoughts are jumbled around in my head this Thanksgiving holiday weekend. Things seem to be going wrong, then a little right, then we get thrown for a loop again, then we get back on course, then the wind gets knocked out of us - but we are still staying strong together.

I'm very thankful for all of my blessings this Thanksgiving. Even struggles can be blessings.

Sending love and hope to you all.

Jillian

the weekend

I started my estrace last week. So far I feel fine. I may start feeling something when I up my dose to three pills a day - that starts on Monday.

I'm looking forward to the three-day work week next week. We'll leave for Tennessee the Saturday after Thanksgiving. Our appointment with Dr. K is on December 1. I can't believe almost three months have passed since our failed IVF. I hope the next three months pass just as fast.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving. I'll let you know how our appointment goes with Dr. K. We will feel truly blessed to get the all clear to proceed with embryo adoption. I can't think of why he wouldn't say everything is okay for us to move forward, but at this point I don't take anything for granted.

Praying for all of you who had transfers this week. Can't wait to hear your pregnancy announcements.

Sending love:

Jill