gotcha day!

This little drool monster was just a tiny embryo a year ago today. Just a tiny embryo waiting to be transferred into my uterus, waiting to grow into our beautiful little boy!

I can't believe how much my life has changed in a year. I have been privileged to experience pregnancy and motherhood. Privileged to wake in the middle of the night to his cries and hold him, privileged to nurse him.

Here's what our countertop top looks like every day when I get home from work. Bottles!

So far Logan is doing really good at daycare and I'm enjoying being back at work. I work at a really great place and I've been very touched by how many people have expressed that they are happy I'm back and that they missed me. Three years of infertility had me in such a funk, I'm lucky I was able to make a somewhat good impression on my coworkers.

Work keeps me busy all day and then 3:30 rolls around and it's time for me to pick up Logan! I've been experimenting with what is the best route from work to daycare to home. I think I picked a good one today - I shaved at least 20 minutes off of yesterday's commute.

Praying for you all on this journey.

Jill

appointment junkie

Things are going really well around here. Logan is turning four months old in little over a week and I'll be returning to work. (Next Tuesday to be exact.) The weather has warmed up and me and the baby and the dog have been getting out on nice long walks. I wear the baby in my "Moby" wrap, which I love. I love having the baby up close to me - and I bet I'm burning more calories and toning from carrying him around like that vs. pushing him in the stroller.

I think our dog is finally coming our of her version of "baby blues." We're out walking again and she's getting more attention as we get a better handle on our little guy. We have Logan's four month appointment next week. It will be fun to see how he's growing. He's still putting on weight like a champ. I hope daycare goes well when I go back to work.

We're already thinking about baby #2. We both turn 37 this year so there's no reason to lallygag. I've already started to book appointments and line up our "ducks" to adopt more embryos and to renew our home study. This might sound crazy - it's the middle of March, but our social worker suggested that we start our home study renewal in June and since we need to adopt more embryos that will take a few months to process. God willing our next FET will be in November 2016.

I've discovered I'm a bit of an appointment junkie. I've already booked my consult at the NEDC for August where I will get cleared to do another FET, and I'm starting to pencil in some of the initial appointments for bloodwork that both my husband and myself will need to get the ball rolling with the NEDC with our local fertility clinic.

There is something satisfying about seeing those appointments on the calendar.

That being said, absolutely nothing is getting in the way of me just enjoying our little miracle! When we actually start trying for # 2 he will be 1 year old. It's crazy that infertility causes a person to go through so much work just to get to the point to make an attempt to have a baby, but that's the way it is.

It makes me feel more a peace to know that things are in process for baby #2. Our siblings and friends are already on their baby #2 and baby #3s, so this is how I handle the situation. Prayer and my little calendar. 

Sending prayers for strength and miracles for all of us on this journey.

xo Jill