matching process

We finally got to download the list of donor profiles on Friday. My husband is out of the country, so he spent the night pouring over them and I spent the morning. We finally shared our top choices with each other and 5 out of 10 of them were the same.

I just submitted our list of hopefuls to the NEDC. Now I guess they vet the choices and get back to us with further information.

I'm starting to get excited about our November transfer. I'm feeling like it's really going to happen. I started birth control last weekend and with it Lovenox injections to prevent blood clots. The birth control is high in estrogen and so are the estrogen supplements (obviously) that I will start to take in October as our transfer date starts to approach. Both are bad for women who have had blood clots.

My husband gets home on this Friday. He has been away for over three weeks and we are more than ready for him to be home. I can't believe we've been able to coordinate some of this with him being overseas. We've done webex meetings with our social worker.

I can't believe it's getting to the end of September. Time is moving too fast.

Logan will be 10 months old on Friday as well.

Praying for you all on this journey.

xo Jill

waiting and waiting

I'm reposting this image from Lauree's blog. It's very true for our situation right now. We're waiting to hear back on our review of our homestudy. I didn't realize that it would take so long or else I would have submitted it a few weeks before our appointment.

Infertility has really taught me patience. Well, maybe that's not true, but now when I feel myself starting to get impatient I remind myself to be patient and to wait for God's plan to unfold. There's a reason why the brakes are on now.

It may mean we will not be transferring in November. We may have to wait until January. If that's the case I just need to cool my jets and count my blessings. Every time I interact with my son I forget about this frustration and just dive in to his smiles and happy grunts.

Two years ago we were waiting for domestic infant adoption and I was so depressed because there seemed to be no end in sight to the waiting. I was desperate for a baby and I couldn't convince anyone to choose us to adopt their baby. It was heartbreaking. The fear and anxiety of  thinking "what if the birthmother doesn't like us..."

Now, I only have to wait for a few weeks to be given the opportunity to connect with families who want to donate their embryos. It's a huge blessing. I pray that we are blessed with another healthy baby.

It would be a miracle.

There are miracles waiting for us, but we have to wait.

Cooling my jets over here and immensely grateful for embryo donation and adoption (even if it takes a while.)

Prayers to all of you on this journey.

xo Jill