six months

Already six months old! I can't believe it. Our little guys is sleeping 6-7 hours each night - in his crib! We're on a roll this week - he's slept in his crib four nights in a row. I hope we can keep it up. I have to admit on the nights that he sleeps in his bassinet next to our bed the main reason is I still love to have him him right next to me. I sleep easier, because I can wake up and hear his breathing.

My mother-in-law was the one who told me that I just have to trust in God that he's safe and sound in his crib at night (after my husband and I have each checked on him twice) and I'm getting better at trusting in that. He cries pretty loud when he's unhappy or wet, so there's no way we can't hear him.


The home study packet for our adoption and all of the paper work for our sibling adoption and transfer through the NEDC are waiting to be opened and started. I'm supposed to call the RN from the NEDC this month to talk about next steps and preparing for our check up appointment in August and our hopeful transfer in November.

I'm praying everything is okay with my uterus after my c-section and that I'm cleared to get pregnant again. I worry about these things. When the doctor walked in and told us that she was recommended at c-section when I was in labor with Logan (after 59 hours of labor) my only hesitation was because I knew it could effect future transfers (we had a monitor on Logan at the time and he was doing okay and did great the entire time I was in labor with him.)

I know I'll have to trust in God about my body being able to carry another baby again as well. It would be another huge, huge blessing. One I will not take for granted. So far my body seems to be recovering well from my c-section, but I haven't had a scan done on my uterus. I will have to wait until August to see what is in store for us and our family.

Sending prayers and hope to all of you on this journey.

xo Jill

5 months (almost)

This little jumping bean is almost 5 months old! I can't believe it! Where does the time go? I love this photo of him. He's been grabbing at me with his hands and his feet lately. It's so wonderful to have him reaching out for me.

Other milestones -

1. He's been rolling over. He gets stuck on his tummy at night and cries, we have to wake up and turn him over.
2. I think he's starting to notice our dog, Bree. 
3. Babbling more, blowing bubbles and cooing. 
4. Lots of drool. I think little teeth are coming!
5. He's really getting good at holding his head up while he's on his belly. 
6. He currently can scootch across the room on his back. He pushes himself with his legs.
7. He's started to squirm around while I change his diaper. This makes changing him tough. 
8. He grabs onto my arm and gnaws on it - more teething. 

I've been doing good with breastfeeding. Pumping is going okay at work. I think I've increased my milk production since being back at work. I get about 16 ounces during an 8 hour work day. The weekends are painful because he doesn't consume that much on a regular day. I'm starting to get quite a stockpile in the freezer, which is exactly what I want because I'm going to stop nursing him mid-July in preparation for our next transfer in November - God willing!

I've already got out homestudy packet, which we need to update and renew - pay another three grand. (Gah!) My husband asked me to add up our total projected expenses for our next round of treatments and it's almost ten grand for us to get the ball rolling. That includes homestudy in our state and then having our homestudy checked and being matched with more embryos. There are so many different fees it's hard to keep them all straight. 

We have a savings account that we keep just for our adoption/transfer attempts - we've built it up over the last four years. No vacations, no expensive dinners, just steady, down to earth living. It's the only way I can stay sane - knowing the money is ready and waiting for another attempt. We got The Total Money Makeover as a wedding present and we've followed those steps to stay financially grounded. It's been helpful to stay on top of our finances - since babies aren't "free" for us.

Praying for you all on this journey.

xo Jill